We all make decision everyday, every moment without realizing it. However, in the rare occasion you realize that you are making a HUGE decision that might change your life. I agree, you probably think that sounds like something that only happens in movies. However, strangely I just remember a few hours ago, I had a 'definting moment' earlier this year, a moment that I made a big decision that changed my life upside down.
This might sound like a story, but it actually happened in one of the most beautiful place in the United State, Arch National Park, UT. When I got the offer letter right before I leave the airport for my trip, I give it glance, and couldn't bother to think anything about it. Yes, it bothers me on and off. Should I do? or shouldn't I do it?? Am I ready to leave the my well paid job and be a poor student? Am I ready to live on no income? Everyone is tell me different things, and I just couldn't make up my mind.
Then there I was, in Arch National Park hiking towards Delicate Arch. After the grilling 2 hours uphill hike over some of the biggest and most blizzard rocks, we finally reach our destination, the infamous Delicate Arch. We aim for sunset, but the sky was cloudy, you can hardly see any lights. My group scatter around the arch, we took tons of photos, and all find a relaxing spot and enjoy our dinner. I had corn dog and some fresh fruits. After dinner, I starting to walk around the arch, there are tons of people trying to take pictures. It was pretty difficult to take a photos without other people in it. I walk around a bit more, then found a spot and sit down just enjoy the moment. My tour guide Scott walk over as usual checking on everyone. He came and sit next to me, I said 'hey' to him, then we just both sit quietly. I didn't have much to say, maybe because I didn't know him or maybe because it's just a moment in life that you are in such an amazing place with such indescribable view, you feel like you shouldn't say anything.
Amazing view of Delicate Arch
I dont' know after how many mins, we start talking randomly. About my life back in NYC, why I came to this trip, how long has he been on the trip. I told him how Charles (the other tour guide) got drunk last year in Denali. I guess that's what break the wall, the conversation started to flow. He start to open up to me about his life, how he don't think his relationship will work with his Australian girlfriend, about his experience in Korea, India, Sir Lenka then he said: "I enjoy my life now, I look forward to tomorrow, to next week, to next month." That is the quote that hit me so hard that I got blow away in the best way possible. I realized at that moment I don't look forward to anything. I spend a lot of money to go to middle of nowhere to look for adventure because nothing excites me anymore; I don't look forward to tomorrow, to next week or next months. I only got excited two weeks out of the year when I go on vacation. That's not enough!!!! I am unhappy 50 weeks out of a year. I don't want to live like this anymore, and there it goes, I put away all the con and only looking at the pro. Six months later, I am jobless but life is full with adventure and new friends again. I am looking forward to thing new events my new lifestyle will bring me. The good and bad, at least I am looking forward to tomorrow. So thank you Scott.
My Dinner...Yummy
The hike was not hard.
